Tears Daily

Its not like I cry all day everyday, but at least once a day, the loss hits me because I think of something I have to share with Diamond.  And then, I am sad.  I have been so busy that I sometimes forget but there is almost always a "moment" when I think of him and just feel the loss of not being able to talk to him.  (or at least have him answer me, cause I do talk to him).

Sylvan and Kielbassi

Today both Keith and I had memories of my Dad. .almost at the same time.  As he was cooking our kielbassi on the grill, he thought to himself he needed to make a "dark one" for Diamond.  I was inside thinking to myself that he might call cause he usually did to say "did you go to the pool today?  I thought I saw your car there?" 

I would say its funny how often these things pop into our heads, but it hurts my heart. . .so its NOT really funny.

Needing an outlet

I started a journal to write thoughts and memories in, but I find it easier to type rather than print or write the thoughts I have.  No one may ever read these thoughts but me, and there may be some I will not post online, but I want to have a space to remember my Dad, and the good, the sad, the happy.

Diamond Dave left this earth on March 14, 2012, and it was sudden.  Being called by the police to come to his house and then finding he died in his sleep is a memory that haunts me, as do many of the memories of the loss.  We know it was peaceful for him, and it was how he would have wanted it, but it was too soon for me.  I have said good-bye but its not the same.

I will use this space as a way to do that as well, and deal with my grief.